Hyper vigilance huh
Is that something that people notice?
Oh yeah, it might not even be real.
It’s one of the symptoms of BPD
what the fuck is ‘energy’.
i will never understand these new age bullshit terms.
unless you are measuring someone else joule output. and if you are doing that you’re either a personal trainer or a creep.
It’s not new age. Its the same meaning as “the energy of the party” and things like that. “The vibe.” How things feel.
It’s fairly analogous to actual energy too. It’s the effect you get from something, like heat from touching something hot, but in mood form. If it makes you feel excited, or sad, or whatever else.
“Energy” is typically heuristic shorthand for “overall patterns of moods, attitudes, and behavior.”
If someone’s behaving differently towards you (general “you” here), regardless of it having to do anything with their relationship to you, you’re going to pick up on it largely subconsciously.
Because the human brain works on shortcuts and said subconscious processing, it typically translates to “idky just vibes I guess” even though it’s a lot of pattern recognition and social calculations.
Me after I THINK I noticed a change that most of the time isn’t there
I dealt with my codependency issues and now idgaf about this, have whatever energy you want around me, like me or don’t, not my problem
They clearly hate you cause you wronged them, so you now have to overanalyze every past interaction you had with them.
Not me, I’m relatively oblivious, it seems. And, yes, that’s a bad thing.
I think oblivious is a little better than paranoid though.
Me realizing the mask is slipping and need to perk up a bit
