• ScoffingLizard@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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    19 hours ago

    I have tried and tried. Got three STEM degrees and 20 years experience, and still never known job security. Now I’m about to be laid off again. I’m tired boss. My family can survive if I check out, but might not if I don’t. It’s a bit of a situation.

    It’s not spite to continue being exhausted so a few assholes can be rich. I feel like it’s more harmful to live. I’m also coming to terms that I’m a miserable person, so maybe I was never meant to be here in the first place.

    • SailorMoss@sh.itjust.works
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      13 hours ago

      It sounds like you have people around you who care about you. I don’t know how much I, a random stranger on the internet can help. But know you’re not alone in your feelings. Consider seeking out professional help if you’re able to.

      It may very well be irrational to keep on going. The universe doesn’t guarantee us a happy existence. But understand it’s irrational from a place of ego. Other people need you for their emotional well being if nothing else.

      Hope is a thing with feathers, it may return someday. We must embrace hope long past time when it is rational, so that someday it may pirch again. Even if not for us.

      This video has helped me work through these feelings some.